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WHO I WAS, WHO I AM, WHO IM GOING TO BE?
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Sunday, July 06, 2008
A girl with ambitions - a heart with hopes A smiling figure at all sorts of jokes One thought it took to make her feel One action she did to start the wheel Her mind was set to achieve a dream Little did she know, her future was dim With a twist of fate It was too late Blood and pus filled her head people were surprised she wasn't dead A girl with determination all so strong One of a kind that did belong Waking to a whole new start, she woke up feeling like she lost a part Anger resentment worry and fears Drowned her emotions all in tears Never knew what she could do with love and hope, she pulled things through In agony she turned nowhere, She wanted help but wouldnt dare Looked down upon, she was so sad, the situation she was in was really bad life then meant nothing to her with all she went through it was a whirl. Life seemed bad for Jane Living it became a pain Family and friends gave up not, Jane only fought fought fought A long and arduous journey it was Through it all, Jane didnt pause One fine day she made it through Her hopes her dreams her wishes came true 2 years, 10 months, 4 hours since I came round. Yes, you might be wondering. Omg, why do I remember so clearly? To be truthul, that one incident marked a real impact in my life. I am certain and firm that the whole experience will be etched in me, always. It will hit me when I'm alone. The fact that my life was second to death, I went through a rough period, a time where nothing seemed to matter more to me than just lying on the hard mattres, staring into space, having no memory of anything, no identity of what had happened what I been through. Being a lively girl I used to be, with hopes and dreams I wanted to achieve - Everything was shattered on the 30th March 2006. "PIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII BANG!" was all I could remember before snapping out of my senses, lying unconscious on the cold floor. Waking up and realizing I remembered nothing. Nothing seemed familiar, I couldnt even remember my mum - someone I love so much. This whole accident, I hope to wake up one day and notice I am still living a dream. Till this day, I cannot bring myself to accept all that I've been through. I want nothing of that sort to happen. Thank you to those who were there, reminding me of the important things I had in life, those which were dear to me. I still thank God that I pulled through it, with love and hope I realized I was not alone. This gave me enough strength and courage and up till this date, there is a tinge of regret burning in me. I shouldnt have drove that day.I shouldnt have rushed that day. I shouldnt have been in a mess that day.
Thursday, July 03, 2008
“If you want to identify me, ask me not where I live, or what I like to eat, or how I comb my hair, but ask me what I am living for, in detail, and ask me what I think is keeping me from living fully for the things I want to live for. Between those two answers you can determine the identity of any person.” -Thomas Mertin, The Man In The Sycamore Tree It’s been days since I came round. I’ve been told of where I (used to) live, what I “liked” to eat, or even how I was like but if it wasn’t for them, would I even come to know of such things? I ask myself, what am I living for, or what is keeping me from living fully for the things I want to live for. And it pains me to realize I don’t even know myself. Every time I look into the mirror, and see a pair of unfamiliar eyes staring back at me, I wonder to myself, is this really me? Who and what kind of person she was? Who am I? They are my families, my friends. Well, at least, that’s what they say. I see and feel the love and care they have for me, but it pains me to know I can never return them. I’m sorry.. but I’m sure, the girl you all once knew, really loved all of you.. yes, I’m sure.. I’m sure..
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Im back you guys! So how I celebrated : I went out with Mary and Esther. It has been sometime since I went out with them. They are my superdupermegaultra close buddies. They were soooooo happy for me! ahhh, i had tears of joy, when they surprised me 'on the spot' to congratulate me. =) It was a great meet-up. How sweet life is. They were always there for me when I had problems. The day ended sooo happily. one two three four five six....... a million things to rejoic about! wow, im a happy girl:) |
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